Friday, December 29, 2006
Perception Is Your Enemy
My training has taken a hit. The month of December has not been kind. My birthday, company holiday party, Christmas, New Years.... There are many reasons to be too busy, too stressed or too distracted from training goals. I let missed workouts get to me. I feel deflated and derailed. My eating gets worse while my running shoes sit unused and my pool visits become less frequent. I feel the fitness leaving my body so quickly. The downward spiral starts and it's hard to fight.
When I started training I weighed 189. After a year off then four weeks of training I got sick over the Thanksgiving weekend and registered my lowest weight of 179. Since that point my training has been sporadic. I know that the progress I made has stalled. I coasted for a few weeks. Now I'm going in reverse. On the positive side, my 100M swim has never been faster.
Now as I commit to making all my workouts, I fight my perception. I feel fat and slow. My motivation comes and goes. I know there are changes I must make to be successful.
But is it really as bad as I think?
I weighed myself this morning and I'm at 180. I'm not going to complain. I'm not starting over completely. I have the power to continue and be successful. It's just one step at a time. Day by day. A cinch by the inch, hard by the yard. I will get out of my head and onto the road and into the pool. Fuck the HR monitor and stop watch. Just get out and have some fun. That's my goal and that's how I'm fighting my negative perception.
When I started training I weighed 189. After a year off then four weeks of training I got sick over the Thanksgiving weekend and registered my lowest weight of 179. Since that point my training has been sporadic. I know that the progress I made has stalled. I coasted for a few weeks. Now I'm going in reverse. On the positive side, my 100M swim has never been faster.
Now as I commit to making all my workouts, I fight my perception. I feel fat and slow. My motivation comes and goes. I know there are changes I must make to be successful.
But is it really as bad as I think?
I weighed myself this morning and I'm at 180. I'm not going to complain. I'm not starting over completely. I have the power to continue and be successful. It's just one step at a time. Day by day. A cinch by the inch, hard by the yard. I will get out of my head and onto the road and into the pool. Fuck the HR monitor and stop watch. Just get out and have some fun. That's my goal and that's how I'm fighting my negative perception.
Labels: motivation, training
